Sad Day..

Sad Day.

Yesterday I received a depressing phone call from someone very dear to me.  They went to the doctor to have a growth checked.  The growth was removed two years ago and now it is back.  It is the size of a grapefruit.  The doctor (who is a renown specialist) thinks it is cancer and it is wrapped around a major nerve.  The only good news is that he does not think it is the type that is deadly but he will not be able to tell till the pathology report gets completed.  Hopefully it has not spread anywhere else.

Next week is the surgery to remove the tumor.  He is going to remove as much as he can without getting to close to the nerve.  The remaining tumor around the nerve will then need to be irradiated for 5 weeks.

Why am I writing about this?  Maybe in a way it is a way to express my sadness (which I have always had trouble doing).  In a way it eases the pain some.  It's sometimes easier to talk to someone without a face.  I am not looking for pity.  Just looking for a place to vent.  

It is going to be a long, hard road for the next couple of weeks.  But we will get through it. Everything happens for a reason in life.  Sometimes you just don't understand why they happen till much later.

It has been a very tough couple of years for me.  Training seems to put my mind back at ease.  When I train my mind becomes erased for that time and I come out feeling like I am more prepared for the next life hurdle.  Right now I need a darn long race to erase my mind. :-)